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Why the confusion?

Dear Diary,
The time is quickly approaching for me to set my feet on a path. It seems more abundantly clear every day that this path is leading me away from Louisville. I wish, however, that people could understand why. Louisville has literally exhausted my spirit. I've endured more hurt here than I ever care to in my whole life. Everything I touch here turns to ashes. I've spent entirely too much time trusting others to hold me up when I should have been planting my own feet. I can't continue to lean on others to share my load. It's mine and mine alone. I don't know where I'm going, or what I'm doing there, but I have to go.
I want to stay. I want to already have a job, an apartment, a plan.. but most of me wants that for all the wrong reasons. There's another popular misconception. I'm not leaving because things aren't working out with her. If my choice had anything to do with her, I'd be staying until I wore her down.
I just have to go, and unless something miraculous happens here before the fact, that's my plan. I'm not running FROM anything, I'm running TOWARD a new life that is MINE! Trust!

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