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I wish I could be less bothered by so many truly random behaviors.  I wish I could focus more on my own faults and less on the nuances of others.  Most times, however, I've just got to get it all out.  If I don't, I end up isolating myself from the people whose behaviors irritate me so, and it's not my place to criticize and judge.  SO, here's a list of the things that are, at present, driving me crazy!  Hopefully getting them out of my system will make me feel a smidge better!
First of all, I'm REALLY REALLY tired of exploitation.  USING your difficulties to get favor or funds is just sickening.  It's REPULSIVE to me that heaps and piles of money, probably in the millions of dollars are getting piled onto people who exploit their stories, yet I can't even get a little bit of help from the government?  I've battled cancer for my WHOLE LIFE!  Though I was diagnosed at 9 years of age, 9 years of disease was in my body.  My parents didn't exploit my story.  They paid every single medical bill my health incurred and networked with doctors who would see and treat me for discounted rates.  Truth be told, I don't even really want help (which, by the way, I'm entitled to) from the government because I'd much rather work, enjoy health insurance, and resume a "normal" life.  If you don't live with a disease like mine, you don't know that this isn't always feasible. The very same people who are heaping money towards these instances of exploitation are the very same people who are so against programs like medicaid and "Obamacare".  MATTHEW 25, people!
Moving along...
Second on the list of annoyances would be chronic irresponsibility.  I'm SO tired of hearing people bellyache about how bad they have it, then in the same breath boast about how many  material things they've purchased, how many times they got wasted this week, or how many elaborate vacations they've enjoyed.  I'm not the best steward of means.  If I were, I'd have hundreds in savings and a MUCH better credit score, but given the means I have been afforded, I think I've done pretty well over the past few years of managing them.
Third, and almost finally, I'm unbelievably exhausted from being witness to the myriads of hate slinging.  I understand that there's an election going on right now and we're all trying to claim our stake and I'll be the first to admit that I can't wrap my mind around how anyone could be a tried and true republican.  HOWEVER, I would NEVER insult someone's intelligence or way of life because of their beliefs.  Religion, politics.. it's all the same.  Why can't we just get along?  I believe strongly in the power and the love of Jesus Christ.  I believe that homosexuals should have the same rights as heterosexuals, bisexuals, pansexuals.. what have you.  I believe that people of all races should be entitled to all of the same privileges provided they WORK for them.  However, there are all too many people who would rather segregate themselves and hurl hatred at those who don't believe just like them.  Again, I'm the first to admit to guilt of "it's my way or the highway" mentality.  It's HARD to think outside the box.  If we want to see the equality that our predecessors fought for, we've got to try.
One Last Thing...
If you're of homosexual orientation, and you're standing in at every protest screaming for the rights you deserve, you're not proving anything by having a commitment ceremony.  Did you know that there are HETEROSEXUAL CELEBRITIES who refuse to get married until we are granted the federal right to marry?  What are you proving by spending hundreds and thousands of dollars on these ceremonies that count for nothing when you need to throw your weight around as someone's life partner?  Yes, I've had two of them and wish I had every single penny back that I spent on both.  I was naive and had myself convinced that this ceremony would "seal" my relationship.  When both partners decided that said relationship was over, I was out on the street with nothing but the items with which I went into the relationship.  I just don't get it.. that's all.
That's all of my kvetching for now.  My sincere apologies if you have been offended.  In my defense, you were warned that you could be victim to my madness.  Perhaps now that all of this has escaped my fingertips, I can move on to worrying more about my own shortcomings! :)
Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaiiiiiiiiiiiiit!!!  I almost forgot, one of the very most pressing and disgusting annoyances I can conceive!  It is never, I repeat NEVER, OK to reply to a person's lament with your own lament or experience.  I don't care if you were born exactly the same disease, have endured exactly the same struggles, 1.) you CAN NOT relate to my problem and 2.) it is SO very RUDE to invalidate my lament with your selfish rambling!!!  When someone trusts you (or the public in the case of social media) enough to share a struggle, they trust you because they believe you will support them.  By rambling into your own struggle, you're conveying a message that you just don't care.  That's not cool under ANY circumstances! DON'T DO IT! EVER!
K that's all! :)

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